childhood trauma
Jan. 28th, 2026 12:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bookishghosti was just going through a bunch of old photos stored on my phone from 2021-2023 and… well, some of them were lovely. fun memories and places and people. but some of them were sort of a stark reminder that i’ve been through a lot of trauma in the past couple of years. no wonder i was frequently dissociating and/or having meltdowns. no wonder my friendships were unstable as hell and i couldn’t find myself for the life of me. you can’t really figure out who you are when you’re stuck in survival mode all the time. survival mode me is not the real me. but i’m so used to survival mode that i forgot how to change the settings. i forgot how to just be me.
it is very hard for me to tell when i’m Fine and when i’m Unwell, but i think i’m in the process of healing. there is probably still a long way to go, but things are looking up, and that’s all i can really ask for right now.
it is very hard for me to tell when i’m Fine and when i’m Unwell, but i think i’m in the process of healing. there is probably still a long way to go, but things are looking up, and that’s all i can really ask for right now.
